Feel, feel for me because I can't
Control, control yourself because I can't
for reasons unbeknownst to me
a penetrating nightmare shakes my heart
and I'm cold
Thoughts lay frozen under, not getting old
Ghosts hold me down and slip me my fate
I'm pushing through but fail to relate
Hope flashes by but never will stay
Whispers ignored as I'm pushed away
Rain, rain is rushing to the ground now
as if something would reward it there.
But me, I just wait for it to end.
I don't rush to anything.
I'm well aware there's no reward for me.
When cherished things and simple tricks
that used to occupy me have died out,
then I'm sold.
Dreams lay frozen under, I'll never know
The sum of these lives
Brings no relief to me
The will of my smile has gone
I'm here in the dark
I reach to touch a hand
But mine passes through